Hi all! Just a tiny update since the last time I posted, but hey, I'll take it!
Turns out we DON'T have to wait for PS#3 to get her period before starting this whole process! Yippee! We clarified with Dawn that her doctor can do her physical exam now - we just need her to get her period before we start any type of interventions/treatments, which we're still months away from. PS#3 just had a physical a few weeks ago, so all her doctor has to do is fill out some paperwork, which she was going to do today.
It feels good to not be at a standstill! Now we just need Dr. Campbell to agree that she's a perfect candidate. If he does, we'll be farther (further? farther? For the sake of not being grammatcially correct, I'll say both!) along in the process than we've ever been. Exciting!!
Monday, February 25, 2013
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
PS #3
It's been awhile since I've posted - sorry for the delay! I think part of me just needed time to let things settle before picking back up again, but many of you have been anxiously awaiting updates, so here goes!
You probably gathered by this post's title that we have another potential surrogate! Let me introduce you to PS#3. :-)
(Sidebar: this is actually our 6th potential surrogate. Yes - SIXTH. However, I've only fully discussed those that have made it as far as working with their doctors. Just a little clarification so you have a bit more insight into how much we need to catch a break, SERIOUSLY. For the sake of my sanity, I hope the 6th time's a charm!!!)
Anyway - PS#3 is another person very close to us; someone we know well and trust completely. How amazingly blessed are we that we've had not one, not two, but SIX people in our lives offer to do this for us; three of which have been full speed ahead?? Trust me, this fact is not lost on me. Dawn (the coordinator at CRM) was in utter disbelief when I told her we had another PS. She said most people can't even find one, let alone three! (Well, six, but she doesn't even know about the first three attempts.) In Dawn's words, it is "a true testament of how loved we must be, to have so many people in our lives who want to help us in this way." I didn't even know what to say to that - it's very humbling. We are blessed and not a day goes by without me realizing it.
I'm really good at getting off track, aren't I?? Back to PS#3. I can't give full disclosure at this point, but the great news is that her doctor has already fully signed off on her being our carrier. According to her doctor, there is no medical reason why she couldn't do it - she's completely healthy, had a healthy pregnancy and delivery, carried to term (and then some - she was overdue!), and has never had any type of medical procedure, surgery, disease, etc. that would be cause for concern - yay!!
So where does this leave us? In the short term, it leaves us with more WAITING. (I love waiting. Waiting is my favorite! Is there anything better??) PS#3 recently went off birth control, and is now waiting to get her period. Once that happens, her doctor can perform the necessary physical exam, which will be sent to Dr. Campbell for approval. At this point, then, we're primarily waiting for Mother Nature. :-) Unfortunately, most of the steps in this whole process must be done in sequential order, so we're at somewhat of a standstill until PS#3 starts cycling again. So, everyone, pray for Aunt Flo to hurry up and arrive so we can get this show on the road! :-) (Did I really just call a period "Aunt Flo"?? Have I regressed to 1950? Maybe all this waiting is actually making me travel backwards in time......)
Speaking of time travel - did any of you ever read "The Time Traveler's Wife? It took me a bit to wrap my head around it, but I ended up enjoying it! I also can't wait to read "11/22/63" by Stephen King, which also involves time travel, from what I've heard/read. Maybe I should start another blog about books. If I did, my first entry would be called "50 Shades of the WORST Writing EVER". Wait, I'm getting off track again - sorry!
Back to the topic at hand - I feel confident that Dr. Campbell will find no reason NOT to approve PS#3, so while we wait, we've been looking for things we can do to prepare for next steps. PS#3 and I reviewed her insurance policy, and found that her insurance will actually cover surrogacy!!!! She even called and confirmed it, just to be sure - I was ecstatic!! This will save us a HUGE amount of money. As I've mentioned in a previous post, a carrier is required to have insurance that covers surrogacy. If they don't, we would have to purchase a plan for them that does (which we would have had to do with both PS#1 and PS#2.) I hate thinking about our future child/children in terms of money, but that's the reality of our situation. The fact that she already has insurance is a huge weight lifted off our shoulders.
I also started looking for surrogacy lawyers, and found one I'm very interested in contacting when the time comes. Other than that, there's not much we can do but wait and hope for the best. Fingers crossed!!!!!
You probably gathered by this post's title that we have another potential surrogate! Let me introduce you to PS#3. :-)
(Sidebar: this is actually our 6th potential surrogate. Yes - SIXTH. However, I've only fully discussed those that have made it as far as working with their doctors. Just a little clarification so you have a bit more insight into how much we need to catch a break, SERIOUSLY. For the sake of my sanity, I hope the 6th time's a charm!!!)
Anyway - PS#3 is another person very close to us; someone we know well and trust completely. How amazingly blessed are we that we've had not one, not two, but SIX people in our lives offer to do this for us; three of which have been full speed ahead?? Trust me, this fact is not lost on me. Dawn (the coordinator at CRM) was in utter disbelief when I told her we had another PS. She said most people can't even find one, let alone three! (Well, six, but she doesn't even know about the first three attempts.) In Dawn's words, it is "a true testament of how loved we must be, to have so many people in our lives who want to help us in this way." I didn't even know what to say to that - it's very humbling. We are blessed and not a day goes by without me realizing it.
I'm really good at getting off track, aren't I?? Back to PS#3. I can't give full disclosure at this point, but the great news is that her doctor has already fully signed off on her being our carrier. According to her doctor, there is no medical reason why she couldn't do it - she's completely healthy, had a healthy pregnancy and delivery, carried to term (and then some - she was overdue!), and has never had any type of medical procedure, surgery, disease, etc. that would be cause for concern - yay!!
So where does this leave us? In the short term, it leaves us with more WAITING. (I love waiting. Waiting is my favorite! Is there anything better??) PS#3 recently went off birth control, and is now waiting to get her period. Once that happens, her doctor can perform the necessary physical exam, which will be sent to Dr. Campbell for approval. At this point, then, we're primarily waiting for Mother Nature. :-) Unfortunately, most of the steps in this whole process must be done in sequential order, so we're at somewhat of a standstill until PS#3 starts cycling again. So, everyone, pray for Aunt Flo to hurry up and arrive so we can get this show on the road! :-) (Did I really just call a period "Aunt Flo"?? Have I regressed to 1950? Maybe all this waiting is actually making me travel backwards in time......)
Speaking of time travel - did any of you ever read "The Time Traveler's Wife? It took me a bit to wrap my head around it, but I ended up enjoying it! I also can't wait to read "11/22/63" by Stephen King, which also involves time travel, from what I've heard/read. Maybe I should start another blog about books. If I did, my first entry would be called "50 Shades of the WORST Writing EVER". Wait, I'm getting off track again - sorry!
Back to the topic at hand - I feel confident that Dr. Campbell will find no reason NOT to approve PS#3, so while we wait, we've been looking for things we can do to prepare for next steps. PS#3 and I reviewed her insurance policy, and found that her insurance will actually cover surrogacy!!!! She even called and confirmed it, just to be sure - I was ecstatic!! This will save us a HUGE amount of money. As I've mentioned in a previous post, a carrier is required to have insurance that covers surrogacy. If they don't, we would have to purchase a plan for them that does (which we would have had to do with both PS#1 and PS#2.) I hate thinking about our future child/children in terms of money, but that's the reality of our situation. The fact that she already has insurance is a huge weight lifted off our shoulders.
I also started looking for surrogacy lawyers, and found one I'm very interested in contacting when the time comes. Other than that, there's not much we can do but wait and hope for the best. Fingers crossed!!!!!
Monday, January 21, 2013
Starting Over
Hi all, and Happy Martin Luther King Jr. Day!
First off - it's really hard to title these posts without them being "spoiler alerts".......I think this one's pretty much a dead giveaway, so I'll just get right to it.
I found out last Thursday that PS#2 is no longer an option, because her OB/GYN/midwife won't approve and won't sign off on her being our carrier. :-( Her main concern is PS#2's history of aneurysm, and the fact that pregnancy weakens the blood vessels. She also had concerns about her carrying multiples, considering one of her single-baby pregnancies didn't go to full term. I understand her reasoning, of course, and I accept that we can't proceed. And, I'm eternally grateful that they offered. But..........
&#*$%^*%$#@!!!! Can't we just catch a break??!
With this news I was morphed into an emotional wreck. The floodgates were opened, as they say. Meltdown. Like, the ugly crying where your eyes swell up and your nose runs and your face contorts into something you'd see on 'The Hills Have Eyes'. FINALLY. Oh, and I had just come from a laser appointment so my face was already beet red and swollen - might as well add mascara and snot to the mix, huh? There went my plans to go to Kohl's and use my newest coupon on nothing I really need (divine intervention? Chris might say so, ha!) Bless the fellow drivers who saw me on France Avenue last week for not calling the police or trying to run me off the road out of fear of what they were seeing. Trying to pull it together at every stoplight just wasn't worth it. I NEEDED this meltdown, dammit!
It was hard to believe that in such a short time our hopes were so high with not one, but TWO options. Then, just two short weeks later, we were left with nothing. Or at least that's how it felt. I know it's not over, but there's a feeling of hopelessness that comes over me from time to time.
There are many of you out there that I almost called to talk, but I just couldn't. What is there to say? I just couldn't say or hear "it's all meant to be" in that moment (not to in any way begrudge someone who might say that.) After my little outburst I was just empty, so I went home and zombied out to my DVR instead. A good distraction until Chris got home from work. But, let me offer you a word of advice: when you can't have kids and need someone to do it for you, do NOT watch Sister Wives. Trust me.
Anyway, it felt good to let myself cry and be pissed for awhile. And by awhile I mean 24 hours, tops. Ain't nobody got time for dat! (Please tell me you've all seen the news clip with the lady saying this about her apartment fire. It's hilarious. Not hilarious that her house was on fire, but hilarious in the way she described it - just to be clear.) You know me - no time for dwelling on the negative! Time to "get back on the horse"! (I'm saying this with a bit of sarcasm, but it's true!)
So, you might be wondering - what kind of horse do we get on from here?? We wonder the same thing. And we'll figure it out. At this point we have no other "personal" options - meaning, no other people that we already know personally. I've had so many people say they'd do it if they were younger, or already had children of their own, or had a uterus of their own. It's so nice to know people genuinely want to help us, but may not be in the position to do so. We understand that and very much appreciate the sentiment. So THANK YOU to those that have told me such things!!!
I've been browsing the surrogate classified ads and I'm excited to say there are a lot of nice and seemingly normal people out there wanting to help those of us in need of a carrier. There's definitely potential. We're going to explore our options before going with the agency, and see where that path takes us.
More to come!!
First off - it's really hard to title these posts without them being "spoiler alerts".......I think this one's pretty much a dead giveaway, so I'll just get right to it.
I found out last Thursday that PS#2 is no longer an option, because her OB/GYN/midwife won't approve and won't sign off on her being our carrier. :-( Her main concern is PS#2's history of aneurysm, and the fact that pregnancy weakens the blood vessels. She also had concerns about her carrying multiples, considering one of her single-baby pregnancies didn't go to full term. I understand her reasoning, of course, and I accept that we can't proceed. And, I'm eternally grateful that they offered. But..........
&#*$%^*%$#@!!!! Can't we just catch a break??!
With this news I was morphed into an emotional wreck. The floodgates were opened, as they say. Meltdown. Like, the ugly crying where your eyes swell up and your nose runs and your face contorts into something you'd see on 'The Hills Have Eyes'. FINALLY. Oh, and I had just come from a laser appointment so my face was already beet red and swollen - might as well add mascara and snot to the mix, huh? There went my plans to go to Kohl's and use my newest coupon on nothing I really need (divine intervention? Chris might say so, ha!) Bless the fellow drivers who saw me on France Avenue last week for not calling the police or trying to run me off the road out of fear of what they were seeing. Trying to pull it together at every stoplight just wasn't worth it. I NEEDED this meltdown, dammit!
It was hard to believe that in such a short time our hopes were so high with not one, but TWO options. Then, just two short weeks later, we were left with nothing. Or at least that's how it felt. I know it's not over, but there's a feeling of hopelessness that comes over me from time to time.
There are many of you out there that I almost called to talk, but I just couldn't. What is there to say? I just couldn't say or hear "it's all meant to be" in that moment (not to in any way begrudge someone who might say that.) After my little outburst I was just empty, so I went home and zombied out to my DVR instead. A good distraction until Chris got home from work. But, let me offer you a word of advice: when you can't have kids and need someone to do it for you, do NOT watch Sister Wives. Trust me.
Anyway, it felt good to let myself cry and be pissed for awhile. And by awhile I mean 24 hours, tops. Ain't nobody got time for dat! (Please tell me you've all seen the news clip with the lady saying this about her apartment fire. It's hilarious. Not hilarious that her house was on fire, but hilarious in the way she described it - just to be clear.) You know me - no time for dwelling on the negative! Time to "get back on the horse"! (I'm saying this with a bit of sarcasm, but it's true!)
So, you might be wondering - what kind of horse do we get on from here?? We wonder the same thing. And we'll figure it out. At this point we have no other "personal" options - meaning, no other people that we already know personally. I've had so many people say they'd do it if they were younger, or already had children of their own, or had a uterus of their own. It's so nice to know people genuinely want to help us, but may not be in the position to do so. We understand that and very much appreciate the sentiment. So THANK YOU to those that have told me such things!!!
I've been browsing the surrogate classified ads and I'm excited to say there are a lot of nice and seemingly normal people out there wanting to help those of us in need of a carrier. There's definitely potential. We're going to explore our options before going with the agency, and see where that path takes us.
More to come!!
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Here we go again!!!
I'm in much better spirits today so I'm hoping this won't be as "bah-humbug" as my last post!
As I mentioned before, Chris and I had plans to see PS#2 and her husband last weekend. Unfortunately, those plans were at a public event and well, it wasn't really the time or place for a topic this heavy! Thankfully, we were able to chat at least a little bit - long enough for her to tell me that they're still on board (yay!) However, she did admit they are a little concerned about carrying multiples (understandably - that would make anyone a little nervous, I'm sure!) I expressed my worries that they were having second thoughts but she assured me they weren't. Still, I spent the rest of the weekend and yesterday feeling very scared that they might change their mind, since there is a realistic chance we might just get more than one baby. As I told her - we're not TRYING for multiples. We just want a baby. Yet, it's very likely that we will transfer more than one embryo, so the possibility of having twins is very real. I've mentioned in previous posts that the number we transfer will depend on many things but we definitely have limits. We'll cross that bridge when we get there.
Anyway - I've been preparing myself for a change of heart. I connected with her today and she again assured me that they are not having second thoughts, and they already had a call out to her neurosurgeon to approve. Wait a second. You're probably thinking: "Neurosurgeon?? Why would neuro be involved?!" Let me explain.
We have a bit of a unique situation with PS #2, in that she suffered a brain aneurysm several years ago. It was a really close call and needless to say, she is closely monitored by her neurologist and neurosurgeon. (I could start a whole 'nother blog about how scary that day was. I'm SO thankful that she's still here with us, and not just because she's offering to have a baby for us!!) It's important to all of us that her brain doctors are comfortable with this whole situation before we go any further in this process, obviously.
Well, we already heard back, and, the answer is YES! PS#2 texted me this afternoon to let me know that her neurosurgeon has no problem at all with her being a surrogate. I'm ecstatic!!!!! She told me to go ahead and have the paperwork sent to her. AHH!!! I'm beyond thrilled that we're exploring another avenue just one short week after getting the bad news about PS#1. I really did think it would take longer for PS#2 to get the go-ahead. Finally, something with a quick turnaround! :-)
Excited as I am, I have to again be patient. Dawn will be sending "the packet" to PS#2 and then we wait. And wait some more. But I can't complain right now; I'm too happy.
As I mentioned before, Chris and I had plans to see PS#2 and her husband last weekend. Unfortunately, those plans were at a public event and well, it wasn't really the time or place for a topic this heavy! Thankfully, we were able to chat at least a little bit - long enough for her to tell me that they're still on board (yay!) However, she did admit they are a little concerned about carrying multiples (understandably - that would make anyone a little nervous, I'm sure!) I expressed my worries that they were having second thoughts but she assured me they weren't. Still, I spent the rest of the weekend and yesterday feeling very scared that they might change their mind, since there is a realistic chance we might just get more than one baby. As I told her - we're not TRYING for multiples. We just want a baby. Yet, it's very likely that we will transfer more than one embryo, so the possibility of having twins is very real. I've mentioned in previous posts that the number we transfer will depend on many things but we definitely have limits. We'll cross that bridge when we get there.
Anyway - I've been preparing myself for a change of heart. I connected with her today and she again assured me that they are not having second thoughts, and they already had a call out to her neurosurgeon to approve. Wait a second. You're probably thinking: "Neurosurgeon?? Why would neuro be involved?!" Let me explain.
We have a bit of a unique situation with PS #2, in that she suffered a brain aneurysm several years ago. It was a really close call and needless to say, she is closely monitored by her neurologist and neurosurgeon. (I could start a whole 'nother blog about how scary that day was. I'm SO thankful that she's still here with us, and not just because she's offering to have a baby for us!!) It's important to all of us that her brain doctors are comfortable with this whole situation before we go any further in this process, obviously.
Well, we already heard back, and, the answer is YES! PS#2 texted me this afternoon to let me know that her neurosurgeon has no problem at all with her being a surrogate. I'm ecstatic!!!!! She told me to go ahead and have the paperwork sent to her. AHH!!! I'm beyond thrilled that we're exploring another avenue just one short week after getting the bad news about PS#1. I really did think it would take longer for PS#2 to get the go-ahead. Finally, something with a quick turnaround! :-)
Excited as I am, I have to again be patient. Dawn will be sending "the packet" to PS#2 and then we wait. And wait some more. But I can't complain right now; I'm too happy.
Friday, January 11, 2013
Back to square 1.5.......
Happy Friday!
I'll start by saying thanks again to everyone for supporting us in this, and for being there for me in the "aftermath" of receiving the news that PS #1 is not going to work out. ("Aftermath" sounds so dramatic, but I'm too lazy to look up other options on thesaurus.com like I usually do. :-) I'm doing okay. No emotional outbursts or tears yet, isn't that great (insert sarcasm)?! I'm really skilled at not FEELING my feelings and just trucking forward with life as if everything is just fine and dandy. It's not a talent I'm necessarily proud of. Sure, it might appear to make me more resilient and adaptable. (And I do pride myself on not being a drama queen or falling apart over every little challenge.) But, I know it's a detriment to both my emotional and physical health. I fully realize that I'm allowed to feel what I feel, and to cry sometimes, and bla bla bla. And I want to! Believe me - it'll come, and it will more than likely be after a few glasses of wine. So, whoever's having wine night with me next, look out - you've been warned. :-) Stacy - if you're reading this - I'm working on not being such a control freak, I promise!! (Yes, I shared my blog with my counselor - that has to count for something, right?! Love you Stacy!)
Anyway - I've been taking the last couple days to let things sink in. I think PS#1 needed that too. She really feels that she was meant to do this for us, and feels that it's part of her life's path (her words!), so it's been hard for both of us to absorb the news that she can't (or, more accurately, shouldn't). I too wish things could be different. I'm absolutely touched that she feels so strongly about helping us. She tells us our baby will be lucky to have us as parents, but I feel like the lucky one to have people like her in our life! It's hard to give up on them and try to move on, but I'm not sure we have any other choice. Dr. Campbell won't risk it, and I don't want to find another doctor for another opinion because we'd have to start from scratch. Especially when we still have PS#2..........
Many of you have been asking me about PS#2, and if she's still an option. The short answer is yes. Chris and I will be seeing her and her husband this weekend, so we're planning to discuss it more then. We'll see where those discussions take us!
I'll start by saying thanks again to everyone for supporting us in this, and for being there for me in the "aftermath" of receiving the news that PS #1 is not going to work out. ("Aftermath" sounds so dramatic, but I'm too lazy to look up other options on thesaurus.com like I usually do. :-) I'm doing okay. No emotional outbursts or tears yet, isn't that great (insert sarcasm)?! I'm really skilled at not FEELING my feelings and just trucking forward with life as if everything is just fine and dandy. It's not a talent I'm necessarily proud of. Sure, it might appear to make me more resilient and adaptable. (And I do pride myself on not being a drama queen or falling apart over every little challenge.) But, I know it's a detriment to both my emotional and physical health. I fully realize that I'm allowed to feel what I feel, and to cry sometimes, and bla bla bla. And I want to! Believe me - it'll come, and it will more than likely be after a few glasses of wine. So, whoever's having wine night with me next, look out - you've been warned. :-) Stacy - if you're reading this - I'm working on not being such a control freak, I promise!! (Yes, I shared my blog with my counselor - that has to count for something, right?! Love you Stacy!)
Anyway - I've been taking the last couple days to let things sink in. I think PS#1 needed that too. She really feels that she was meant to do this for us, and feels that it's part of her life's path (her words!), so it's been hard for both of us to absorb the news that she can't (or, more accurately, shouldn't). I too wish things could be different. I'm absolutely touched that she feels so strongly about helping us. She tells us our baby will be lucky to have us as parents, but I feel like the lucky one to have people like her in our life! It's hard to give up on them and try to move on, but I'm not sure we have any other choice. Dr. Campbell won't risk it, and I don't want to find another doctor for another opinion because we'd have to start from scratch. Especially when we still have PS#2..........
Many of you have been asking me about PS#2, and if she's still an option. The short answer is yes. Chris and I will be seeing her and her husband this weekend, so we're planning to discuss it more then. We'll see where those discussions take us!
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
The "Big Day" (Later)......
So I know many of you have been anxiously awaiting the results of today's appointment, so I'll just get right to it. It's a NO. :-( PS#1 is officially "out of the running", as you might say. I've been sitting on this news for the last 6 hours trying to figure out what I'm feeling, and I just don't really know. On the way home, I just felt numb. And maybe I still am. I haven't cried. Is that good or bad? In fact, I haven't actually spoken one word to anyone since I left the doctor's office other than "thank you" to the guy at Sam's Club who rang up my k-cups (sidebar: did you know that Sam's Club now has their own super cheap brand of K-cups?! I thought they were worth a try - I'll let you know how they are.) Sorry, I'm really good at distracting myself from things I don't want to think about. Oops, I lied. I also talked to Chris, of course. I hate always being the bearer of bad news, and more than anything, I hate when he is sad. But, to stay true to my blog's purpose, I won't speak for him or his feelings. But of course he's sad - that goes without saying. We both are.
Ya know how earlier today I said I was trying to prepare myself for a "NO"? Well, I didn't realize until we got the news just how much I was truly convinced that PS#1 was "the one"; that this was all meant to be, and that somehow, my doctor would be proven wrong and we could move on to the next step.
You might be wondering, WHY? Long story short - PS#1 has some scar tissue in her uterus that, if she were to become pregnant, would put her at risk for miscarrying and worse, hemorrhaging (EEK!). Sure, there are risks in any pregnancy, but in a situation like this, we need to have an optimal "hospitable" uterus, to keep everyone safe and healthy. I understand completely why Dr. Campbell won't sign off. But it doesn't make it any easier.
When Dr. Campbell left the room, PS #1 said to me: "whatever's meant to be, right Al?" It's something we've been saying to each other from the beginning. It's so true. Or at least I hope it's true. I keep telling myself that. There has to be plan in all this, right? I even gave a homeless man two dollars before the appointment as an act of good karma, c'mon! (To which he responded by proposing marriage to me. Oddly enough, Chris didn't get even a little jealous, hmmm.......)
I will remain positive. Anyone who knows me knows I can't stand a Negative Nelly, but I think I need to give myself a bit more room to feel things other than sunshine and rainbows. I know this journey is not over; we just have to back-track a bit. But for right now, I'm just waiting for my husband to get home from work so we can give each other a big hug. And I might even let myself get pissed at the world, at least for a minute or two.
Thanks again for all your support. Love you all!
Ya know how earlier today I said I was trying to prepare myself for a "NO"? Well, I didn't realize until we got the news just how much I was truly convinced that PS#1 was "the one"; that this was all meant to be, and that somehow, my doctor would be proven wrong and we could move on to the next step.
You might be wondering, WHY? Long story short - PS#1 has some scar tissue in her uterus that, if she were to become pregnant, would put her at risk for miscarrying and worse, hemorrhaging (EEK!). Sure, there are risks in any pregnancy, but in a situation like this, we need to have an optimal "hospitable" uterus, to keep everyone safe and healthy. I understand completely why Dr. Campbell won't sign off. But it doesn't make it any easier.
When Dr. Campbell left the room, PS #1 said to me: "whatever's meant to be, right Al?" It's something we've been saying to each other from the beginning. It's so true. Or at least I hope it's true. I keep telling myself that. There has to be plan in all this, right? I even gave a homeless man two dollars before the appointment as an act of good karma, c'mon! (To which he responded by proposing marriage to me. Oddly enough, Chris didn't get even a little jealous, hmmm.......)
I will remain positive. Anyone who knows me knows I can't stand a Negative Nelly, but I think I need to give myself a bit more room to feel things other than sunshine and rainbows. I know this journey is not over; we just have to back-track a bit. But for right now, I'm just waiting for my husband to get home from work so we can give each other a big hug. And I might even let myself get pissed at the world, at least for a minute or two.
Thanks again for all your support. Love you all!
The "Big Day"!
January 8th!! The big day is here. We're three hours away from appointment time but I felt compelled to write. THANK YOU to everyone for the texts, calls, emails and FB messages today, and for all the well wishes, prayers, and crossed fingers (and other body parts.) It means so much to have your support!!
I'm cautiously optimistic for today's results. I don't want to get my hopes up, and I'm trying to prepare myself for hearing "NO". But, seeing the glass half-empty just isn't my style, so it's hard for me to think anything but positive thoughts! Regardless of the outcome, I'm blessed to have this selfless person in my life, who's willing to put her body through all sorts of rigamarole for us to achieve our dream of becoming parents.
More to come..........
I'm cautiously optimistic for today's results. I don't want to get my hopes up, and I'm trying to prepare myself for hearing "NO". But, seeing the glass half-empty just isn't my style, so it's hard for me to think anything but positive thoughts! Regardless of the outcome, I'm blessed to have this selfless person in my life, who's willing to put her body through all sorts of rigamarole for us to achieve our dream of becoming parents.
More to come..........
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