Friday, November 16, 2012

Excited and nervous!!!!

I'm on pins and needles!!!

Potential surrogate #1 had an appointment with her OB/GYN today, and just called me with the results. Her doctor says everything looks great from her standpoint, but she wants to make sure all the internal stuff looks good too before she signs off on the paperwork. She ordered some ultrasounds, and there "just happened" to be two cancellations while PS#1 was there, so she was able to get right in today!! (Coincidence, or divine intervention??!) The ultrasound results will take about 5 days, but if everything looks good, her doctor will give her blessing!! AHH!! I'm so excited, yet nervous too! PS#1's doctor has actually worked with three other women who were surrogates, so she's familiar with the process and is totally supportive - so reassuring!!

As always, I'm feeling so blessed right now. I'm trying not to think too far ahead - just taking one step at a time!! As part of this process, I've also been trying to take better care of myself, both physically and emotionally. I actually got hypnotized several weeks ago to help me make better healthy choices in terms of eating and exercise - you just never know - maybe my body just needs a natural kickstart to help me have normal cycles again.

Time out - you're probably thinking, what?! Hypnotized?! Yep! My coworker and I were talking one day about how hard it can be to "stay on track" with being healthy and I jokingly said "I seriously need to be hypnotized into thinking I love healthy foods and love to exercise." Low and behold, her mom did just that many years ago, lost a bunch of weight, and has kept it off! (She hasn't had french fries in 12 years or something crazy like that!) Well, whaddya know? A couple days later my coworker gets a Groupon e-mail for a hypnotherapy session for 2 for $29 (regularly $290!!!) She asked if I truly wanted to do it, to which I replied "heck yes, for $29 I'll try it!" We signed up right then, and for whatever reason they gave us $10 off! So, for both of us we paid $19 total for something that usually costs around $300. Awesome. Anyway......

The session was 3 hours long, and we were hypnotized 4 different times. I always thought that when you get hypnotized, you don't remember anything (flashback -1994: fellow high school students running around, squwaking like chickens and making fools of themselves after being hypnotized - um, no thanks!) Turns out that's totally not "real". I actually remember everything about being hypnotized.

Long story short - it was pretty cool and I think it worked - I'm down 9 pounds in 4 weeks!!! Granted, I've been doing Weight Watchers as well, but unlike other times I've tried WW, it's just easy this time around and I have no tempation to "cheat". I turned down Dar's pizza for crying out loud! (For those of you from my hometown, you know what that means!!!) Not sure if it's truly the hypnotizing that's doing it, or if I just think it is, but either way, I'm making better, healthier choices and it feels great! If anyone is interested in learning more about the hypnotherapy I attended - here's the link:  http://www.livinglitenow.com/

That's about all for now. So glad it's Friday! I will keep you all posted on what we find out from the ultrasound results!!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Options........

Hello all,

First off - a shout out to my Grandma Carlson, who turns 91 today!! I was fortunate to visit her this past week and although she doesn't remember who I am, she remains her beautiful, loving self. Happy Birthday Grandma!

Thanks to those of you following this blog so diligently - as promised, here are some updates! :-)

We left off with Chris and I reviewing the agency application and determining what we were looking for in a surrogate. That task was a bit bigger than we anticipated, so we had no problem taking a little break from it. :-) Chris took off to enjoy 10 days of deer hunting, and I took advantage of my hunting widow-hood by going back home to spend the week with family and friends - much needed for both of us! This little time-out proved to be a blessing in disguise and brought about some MAJOR developments. (I'm becoming more and more convinced that timing is everything and God's plans always have a way of working themselves out!)

In the short amount of time that Chris and I "vacationed", we secured not ONE, but TWO surrogate options!! WHAT?!! YES!!!!! Both of these options are people already in our lives - loved ones who both Chris and I have knows for years and years. (At this time, I'm not naming any names, as we are still in the process of getting cleared by our doctors to proceed.) I had given up on anyone else coming forward to offer, but thanks to this blog, our story reached people in a way it may not have otherwise. Just another reason I'm thankful I started this ol' thing. :-)

Seriously though. I can't even believe how blessed we are to have people in our lives who would so selflessly help us out in this way, expecting nothing in return. Both couples have said no strings attached, and no fees (although, one did say she'd expect a yearly Christmas card - really?! She already gets one, ha ha!) The best part is that each of these people had already discussed the issue with their husbands before coming to me, and those husbands have talked to me personally. It takes a special guy to agree to something like this, right?! Talk about keepers!! (Note: this is in no way meant to disparage the other people who offered but whose husbands thought they were crazy - I totally get it and they are also keepers - you all know who you are!! :-)

Sidebar: I want to take a minute here to acknowledge that there are other people in our life who are very much willing and able to do this for us, but for reasons of our own, were not "chosen" to be our carrier. You also know who you are, and I know you'll read this. We love you, and will forever appreciate that you offered to do this for us. My excitement in finding someone "else" does not diminish our appreciation for you, and I hope you know that this decision is nothing personal in terms of something we find lacking in you. Please know that as I write about this, you are in my mind and when I talk about how blessed we are for the people in our lives - YOU are included in that. We love you.

The next step in the process was to contact the gestational carrier program coordinator at CRM, which I did yesterday. She will be reaching out to Potential Carrier #1 (as I'll call her for now) to get the paperwork started. PC #1 has an appointment with her OB/GYN this week, at which time they'll determine if she'll be cleared to do this. If not, we'll move on to Potential Carrier #2. AHH! We're moving right along now!! Stay tuned!!